Thunderstorm

I am tired! Yes I AM TIRED! Whatever shit happens right now I am still swallowing it! I don't know how long I can take it! There is just a ticking bomb in the house and I don't know when it's going to explode! You know that fear that you don't know when you are going to die? It's scary and disgusting! From young till now, I have changed a lot to suit in this situation but it's not enough and I am reaching my limit now.. Somehow something just ask me to continue to extend my limit.. I am really tired! MENTALLY!

Even the biggest boss can't control it' what can I do? HELP!

Sorry for the complaint post! I just had no where to express this ...